The Hours

"Someone has to die so that the others can value their lives"

Being holidays I hire a few light hearted movies to have playing while I'm at home so that the silence doesn't eat away at me while being alone.
So anyhow I decided to get out the movie The Hours , seemed to be a bit of something interesting.

It was heavy.
But also excellent.
Thought provoking.
But definately is not for all.

The above quote is from the climax of the movie, just after the man dying a painfully slow death of AIDs tips sideways, out of a 6th story windowsill. He doesnt survive (obviously).

Based on Virginia Woolf's book 'Mrs Dalloway', and two women (one reading and one living the story) one simply watches a day in their lives unfold.
It's slow, is not obvious in what it is saying (when is Woolf ever?!) but it speaks silently the lives of so many (women espeacially) living life in a horrible empty pain, which in itself is a scary thought.

So if you want to understand what goes unsoken this is definately worth the time. But be warned - this is a bunt cake when you're expecting a sponge.

A little Grey's wisdom

Disclaimer : this is a ramble of a person who has been annoyed many times. she's unreasonable. judgemental. and thinks far too highly of herself. But she has a bad headache, an aching leg and wants to ramble. so deal.

As Brett would know, lately I have had a few issues. You see I suppose you could say I set reasonably high standards of others. I expect people to act in a generally moral and care-for-others type way. Its hard to explain how I see the world, but one thing that is easy to describe is that people fail it/me. All the time. And it gets to me. I mean really gets to me in the whole SJ-is-upset way (thankfully brett and caitlin are the only unfortunate people to have witnessed this irrational state).

I just wish people would relise bitchy comments are unnecessary. Snarkiness is a quality no one desires and its like a stab wound when people, to whom I have offered alot of time, niceness and sacrifice for, alllow their stresses and pain to come out in a horrible way towards me. Snide off- hand comments bug me. Big time... they eat at my happiness.
Same with not being fair. I have an unreasonable expectation that the world plays by the same fair rules as in my head. People are nice, they do things for others even when it bothers them, they think of how their actions affect others and refuse to do things that could be hurtful. They dont form cliques or purposely try and leave someone out. They stick to their word and stand up for people when required. Is this too much to ask?

I know the worlds not perfect and people fail. I know the faults I see in others are those I that I dislike myself. BUT sometimes, every once I want to be selfish and pretend I am perfect and everyone around me fails. Espeacially when I am stressed. I want it all to be about me.

And unfortunately I have been verging on sick for a while. Ive been busy, worked hard and tired. So its been all about me a bit to much and SJ's internal monologue has been running at full steam. And its unhappy.

And thats where the TV comes in.

As most of my friends know I love stories. I love reading book, watching movies, hearing patients tell me their life and most of all I love watching characters week after week in my many favourite TV programs.
One of these programs happens to be Greys Anatomy (it really is brilliant for all those doctors out there who complain its not like real life - understand ITS NOT ABOUT THE MEDICINE ITS ABOUT THE RELATIONSHIPS so please stop making me feel dumb for watching, and enjoying, it *blush*)

SO anywho back to it. On greys anatamoy a while back one of the characters was hurt, frustrted, pushed and generally just damm pissed that the people around her hadn't lived up to the standards she took for granted (in fact I have many things in common with this character...but that can be another time) And when the guy that had done this to her needed her, she came back and helped him out. Saying "that's what Jesus would freaking do!". I love it.

So if u see me grit my teeth, scowl and help you out; give me a bone. Im trying to be more like Jesus.

Looking their best

The Hoogies

The Pietersens

Brett and my immediate family

Parents, siblings, grandparents, aunties, uncles, cousins.

(unfortunately quite a few missing)

Where Im from...

Yay holidays have begun!!

After 14 weeks of no time out I'm looking forward to getting through the wad of things that have accumulated in the 'when I have time pile'.
Unfortunately, sitting here I'm feeling a tad overwhelmed - too much to sift through.
SO I'll just avoid it all.
Classic med student procrastination - one thing I've been taught well over the past years.

A good way to procrastinate - catch up with people (ie the reason behind this blog).

First - a few recent (therefore wedding) photos of our wonderful family.

Hee Hee

So I've finally been roped in...!

Well I've entered something I told myself I would never do.... the world of intellectual 'jacking off' (see rhett's blog many months ago to understand).

But I have an excuse... I swear its a good one!!
Here goes..

Being a newly married med student my life is busy. No.... make that impossibly hectic :P. So I have become a bad friend, poor family member and slack correspondant. Lack of time means I never have a chance to get in contact or just maintain a smeckle of up-to-dateness with the many people I would love to, therefore this is my cheap version of mass emails. An infrequent up-to-date on what my life is doing. For those of you that care! More importantly a record for me of what my life is doing, seeing as journal writing is a sweet dream.

So there it is. As brett so warmly blurted out - "your a geek!!!".

Hope your all well, comments and emails will probably be the extent of catching up with many of you, and for that I am so sorry. Excuses aren't valid. But they are a plenty!

Ciao!

To start it off - Mr and Mrs Pietersen

A picture of the most important person in my life, on the happiest day I've had.